You know I had to look up AWOL on an online dictionary to make sure I had the right description and the right meaning to this post and when I read the definition I knew it was perfect. Here it is:
"away from military duties without permission, but without the intention of deserting."
Now do I consider this blog to be in the same league as the military? Not really but I do feel that it is my duty to keep this blog going, not just for the people that read this but mainly for me.
I need to feel responsible for the promises I make to myself. I need this blog as a recorder and log for my successes and set backs. It keeps track the numbers on the scale for me and allows me to look back at the mistakes and patterns I have (like becoming a gluttonous monster the second I go home).
So believe me when I say I DID notice when I didn't log in and write a Weigh In last Monday. I noticed when I couldn't even log on to the blogger world to read other peoples posts for inspiration let alone write my own entry.
I don't know what happened but I just couldn't be online long enough to do anything productive. I don't have an explanation or excuse that can get me out of this one.
But I promise there will be a Weigh In post tomorrow night. I am STILL here. I'm not going ANYWHERE!
love,
-w0rld
Sunday, February 13, 2011
Friday, February 4, 2011
I'm lucky; I was born Fat.
Going through the motions of weight loss and meeting people going through similar journeys and I wonder, am I at an advantage for never having been skinny in the first place?
It seems to me that it is a lot more stressful and frustrating for people who want to "return to the high school weight" or go back to being fit like when they "played so and so sport" etc..
It's something they had and they lost. Probably for a variety of reasons:
They had a super fast metabolism growing up and never had to worry about what they ate... until now.
They were always active kids and then when they slowed down the pounds caught up with them.
They injured themselves and couldn't move or eat the way they needed.
etc etc..
I never had these problems (or experiences). I never have to worry about wanting to go back to the "high school weight" since I weighed 230 lbs in high school. I never joined a sport and because I'm the most cautious person in.the.world (makes me the slowest hiker in history probably) I --knock on wood-- haven't had any major injuries that disabled me from moving (except of course morbid obesity and lack of motivation.. but anyway).
I've never been thin. No, I don't think me being a normal 7 year old counts since I started gaining weight when I was 9.
I guess it's one of those "you don't miss what you've never had" sort of things.
Now that isn't to say that I'm in anyway better or a step forward from people who were once fit and now have to struggle to return to where they were (or settle that they won't ever reach the same fitness level they once had) because I've allowed myself to go downhill for so long I now suffer from multiple health problems and chances are a few muscle and posture problems a chiropractor would love to get their hands on.
I've missed out on opportunities and lost a large sense of self esteem and confidence. No, I wouldn't wish my old life on anyone. But I admit I'm glad I don't have to worry about stressing over a body I once had and lost.
I'm at the point in my weight where I've never been before. It only gets better (and lighter) from here. This is all new to me. I'm excited. I'm scared. I'm determined to continue until I reach my goal weight and then some.
I wonder though, does the knowledge that you were once fit and happy make it harder to get back to that weight? Or does it motivate you knowing you were there once and could make it there again?
I don't know.
Always pensive,
-w0rld
It seems to me that it is a lot more stressful and frustrating for people who want to "return to the high school weight" or go back to being fit like when they "played so and so sport" etc..
It's something they had and they lost. Probably for a variety of reasons:
They had a super fast metabolism growing up and never had to worry about what they ate... until now.
They were always active kids and then when they slowed down the pounds caught up with them.
They injured themselves and couldn't move or eat the way they needed.
etc etc..
I never had these problems (or experiences). I never have to worry about wanting to go back to the "high school weight" since I weighed 230 lbs in high school. I never joined a sport and because I'm the most cautious person in.the.world (makes me the slowest hiker in history probably) I --knock on wood-- haven't had any major injuries that disabled me from moving (except of course morbid obesity and lack of motivation.. but anyway).
I've never been thin. No, I don't think me being a normal 7 year old counts since I started gaining weight when I was 9.
I guess it's one of those "you don't miss what you've never had" sort of things.
Now that isn't to say that I'm in anyway better or a step forward from people who were once fit and now have to struggle to return to where they were (or settle that they won't ever reach the same fitness level they once had) because I've allowed myself to go downhill for so long I now suffer from multiple health problems and chances are a few muscle and posture problems a chiropractor would love to get their hands on.
I've missed out on opportunities and lost a large sense of self esteem and confidence. No, I wouldn't wish my old life on anyone. But I admit I'm glad I don't have to worry about stressing over a body I once had and lost.
I'm at the point in my weight where I've never been before. It only gets better (and lighter) from here. This is all new to me. I'm excited. I'm scared. I'm determined to continue until I reach my goal weight and then some.
I wonder though, does the knowledge that you were once fit and happy make it harder to get back to that weight? Or does it motivate you knowing you were there once and could make it there again?
I don't know.
Always pensive,
-w0rld
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
My Next Article is IN!
I just finished my next article, mainly focused on my local community but with a simple message to check out Local Farmers Markets.
I honestly think farmers markets are an awesome experience to try. You get to socialize with your community and buy some awesome food.
Try new things, check out new recipes and actually be outside for it instead of in a boring old grocery store.
I love the flowers. You get good food and a center piece for your table. Mmm.
I don't know. Am I wrong? Do you buy from farmers markets? I wish my little desert town had more of these kinds of things.
I honestly think farmers markets are an awesome experience to try. You get to socialize with your community and buy some awesome food.
Try new things, check out new recipes and actually be outside for it instead of in a boring old grocery store.
I love the flowers. You get good food and a center piece for your table. Mmm.
I don't know. Am I wrong? Do you buy from farmers markets? I wish my little desert town had more of these kinds of things.
It's February! Aaaah!
I cannot BELIEVE it's February people! Valentine's Day is 13 days away and I don't have a date! Oh NO!
LOL LOL
I'm just kidding. I'm not the kind of person who would worry or care too much about Valentines Day.
No, what I really came here to say is that I weighed myself again this morning and got an interesting surprise in the scale.
Beginning February weight: 207.6 lbs
I don't get. I don't get it. But it works in my favor. So, I'm keeping it. :)
I weighed myself three times to make sure it was right and each time the scale blinked "207.6" so 207.6 it is.
Thank you so much for the responses on my last post
The food WAS delicious. I WILL get back to my regular routine. I HAVE been meaning to try new things in the pool.
And for those of you that wonder what the *(&%^ I'm talking about when I mean "deer capture" I mean that a helicopter crew goes around, nets a doe, brings it back to camp, we take out samples of blood, hair and etc, put a radio collar on it, and let it go.
No venison for me tonight my friends. LOL
Thank you again. Wish me luck on this week and have a great February!!
LOL LOL
I'm just kidding. I'm not the kind of person who would worry or care too much about Valentines Day.
No, what I really came here to say is that I weighed myself again this morning and got an interesting surprise in the scale.
Beginning February weight: 207.6 lbs
I don't get. I don't get it. But it works in my favor. So, I'm keeping it. :)
I weighed myself three times to make sure it was right and each time the scale blinked "207.6" so 207.6 it is.
Thank you so much for the responses on my last post
The food WAS delicious. I WILL get back to my regular routine. I HAVE been meaning to try new things in the pool.
And for those of you that wonder what the *(&%^ I'm talking about when I mean "deer capture" I mean that a helicopter crew goes around, nets a doe, brings it back to camp, we take out samples of blood, hair and etc, put a radio collar on it, and let it go.
No venison for me tonight my friends. LOL
Thank you again. Wish me luck on this week and have a great February!!
Monday, January 31, 2011
Weigh In
Ok so I stepped on the scale this morning and wasn't happy nor was I surprised at what I saw.
Current Weight: 210.2 lbs (that's a 1.8 lbs gain from last week)
Work Out Achievement(s): So looking at that number I really had to re-evaluate what I had done last week. Here it is:
Last Monday, I was training on deer capture and spent my night at a bookstore slirping up Starbucks. No swimming
Last Tuesday, I spent the entire day in Las Vegas trying to run as many errands as I could. I ate at In N Out. A double double, all my fries and a strawberry shake. No swimming.
Last Wednesday, back to normal. No big events. Ate well and went swimming.
I honestly don't remember Thursday. I'm pretty sure I went swimming. Right??
Last Friday, my boss came and brought us Asiago Bread from her local bakery. I started eating away at the cheese bread. That was also the night of the million eaten cookies and a couple of brownies too. Swam half my laps.
Last Saturday, was the dinner with the other environmental conscious ppl. Ate like a mad woman. Ate chips and salsa, salad, two pieces of bbq chicken, rice, two margaritas, Sauted and broiled brussel sprouts, a ton of Date Bread and like 2 and a half eclairs for desert. Swam all my laps.
Last Sunday. Almost back to normal but ate a giant fruit salad followed by a cheese bread sandwich for lunch. Swam all my laps.
So yeah that's the trend. Ate too much, not enough swimming, and if you haven't noticed I STILL haven't re-started my jogging routine.
February is tomorrow and I'll have to re-weigh myself for the Monthly Weight Log on the side panel --->
I doubt there will be much change but I was really hoping to go down a few more pounds.
If I don't watch myself I'll end up in another plateau like I did all last summer. NOT Good!
Goal(s): I'm going to try my Hardest to re-start my jogging routine and watch my food intake. I'm not sure what it is that's making me so ravenous but I have to figure it out.
I'm a little stressed out right now so that might have something to do with it.
Do you have those weeks where you just can't stop eating? How do you work past that?
-w0rld
Current Weight: 210.2 lbs (that's a 1.8 lbs gain from last week)
Work Out Achievement(s): So looking at that number I really had to re-evaluate what I had done last week. Here it is:
Last Monday, I was training on deer capture and spent my night at a bookstore slirping up Starbucks. No swimming
Last Tuesday, I spent the entire day in Las Vegas trying to run as many errands as I could. I ate at In N Out. A double double, all my fries and a strawberry shake. No swimming.
Last Wednesday, back to normal. No big events. Ate well and went swimming.
I honestly don't remember Thursday. I'm pretty sure I went swimming. Right??
Last Friday, my boss came and brought us Asiago Bread from her local bakery. I started eating away at the cheese bread. That was also the night of the million eaten cookies and a couple of brownies too. Swam half my laps.
Last Saturday, was the dinner with the other environmental conscious ppl. Ate like a mad woman. Ate chips and salsa, salad, two pieces of bbq chicken, rice, two margaritas, Sauted and broiled brussel sprouts, a ton of Date Bread and like 2 and a half eclairs for desert. Swam all my laps.
Last Sunday. Almost back to normal but ate a giant fruit salad followed by a cheese bread sandwich for lunch. Swam all my laps.
So yeah that's the trend. Ate too much, not enough swimming, and if you haven't noticed I STILL haven't re-started my jogging routine.
February is tomorrow and I'll have to re-weigh myself for the Monthly Weight Log on the side panel --->
I doubt there will be much change but I was really hoping to go down a few more pounds.
If I don't watch myself I'll end up in another plateau like I did all last summer. NOT Good!
Goal(s): I'm going to try my Hardest to re-start my jogging routine and watch my food intake. I'm not sure what it is that's making me so ravenous but I have to figure it out.
I'm a little stressed out right now so that might have something to do with it.
Do you have those weeks where you just can't stop eating? How do you work past that?
-w0rld
Friday, January 28, 2011
Bleh
I found out this little town was having a story/presentation about the history of a local. I decided to check it out mainly because my boss was supposed to be there to talk to the presenter afterwards.
So that means I had to rush my swimming to make it in time. Which means I only did half my laps. Then I got there and they had cookies and other baked goods. I ate some (I had already eaten dinner.) After the presentation I ate more.
My boss never showed up. So I went next door the restaurant (where I was working previously) and told the girls there about my cookie eating. They wanted some.
So I went back to get them more cookies... and I ate more.
I took one out for the cook. He didn't want it. So I ate that one too.
Now I'm here. And I just finished writing my new article
Check it Out.
but now I feel incredibly full and a little guilty.
Why cookies? Why are you so good?
Tomorrow will be a better day.
That is all.
<3 w0rld
So that means I had to rush my swimming to make it in time. Which means I only did half my laps. Then I got there and they had cookies and other baked goods. I ate some (I had already eaten dinner.) After the presentation I ate more.
My boss never showed up. So I went next door the restaurant (where I was working previously) and told the girls there about my cookie eating. They wanted some.
So I went back to get them more cookies... and I ate more.
I took one out for the cook. He didn't want it. So I ate that one too.
Now I'm here. And I just finished writing my new article
Check it Out.
but now I feel incredibly full and a little guilty.
Why cookies? Why are you so good?
Tomorrow will be a better day.
That is all.
<3 w0rld
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
Weigh In
Hello Everyone,
It's that time again. Let's start:
Current Weight: 208.2 (that's a 2.2 lbs loss this week)
Work Out Achievement(s): So I'm dying to get to 199 lbs so I can buy my new swimsuit. This poor thing is getting ratty. My goggles also stopped working (the suction stopped working so now water seeps inside and irritates me to no end). I went out of my way today to buy new goggles and I'm already bookmarking the internet page of the swimsuit I want.
I'm actually relieved that I lost any weight at all this week since I've made the mistake of cutting my swimming short more than once last week. I've been trying to get so many things done that I have been doing less laps than I'm used to. That is NOT good. If I keep this up I'm going to get lazy and start skipping swimming all together. I need to make sure I don't do that.
This weekend was also not good for the diet. Ironically enough as I was writing my weight loss article, while at Borders, I ended up buying and eating food from their Starbucks. That food is sooo not good for me. I need to watch that too.
Other than that this weekend was AWESOME because I got to learn a new trade (deer capture and release) and also had a chance to do some good hiking while looking for a radio collar with Radio Telemetry. We ended up going up and down adjacent canyons looking for a possibly dead radio collared deer. We were about ready to give up when we found it... next to the road.. on flat ground. No deer in sight. Darn thing gave us the slip! LOL
Goal(s): So I doubt I'll get much of a chance to visit bookstores this week so I think the temptation to buy that Grande Double Chocolate Chip and that scone will subside and things will get better.
I have my new goggles now so I have no excuse not to go swimming. Our schedule should be more routine so I also don't have any excuse to skimp out on my swimming either.
I'm preparing a new article as I type this. I'm thinking what I'll do is try to write 2 articles a week. One specific on local functions (since I AM a LOCAL examiner) and one focused more on what it takes to lose weight and looking in to reasons we gain weight in the first place etc.
Today's article will be focused on local events. So if you're from the Inland Empire this should be relevant to you. LOL
Till we meet again!
-w0rld
It's that time again. Let's start:
Current Weight: 208.2 (that's a 2.2 lbs loss this week)
Work Out Achievement(s): So I'm dying to get to 199 lbs so I can buy my new swimsuit. This poor thing is getting ratty. My goggles also stopped working (the suction stopped working so now water seeps inside and irritates me to no end). I went out of my way today to buy new goggles and I'm already bookmarking the internet page of the swimsuit I want.
I'm actually relieved that I lost any weight at all this week since I've made the mistake of cutting my swimming short more than once last week. I've been trying to get so many things done that I have been doing less laps than I'm used to. That is NOT good. If I keep this up I'm going to get lazy and start skipping swimming all together. I need to make sure I don't do that.
This weekend was also not good for the diet. Ironically enough as I was writing my weight loss article, while at Borders, I ended up buying and eating food from their Starbucks. That food is sooo not good for me. I need to watch that too.
Other than that this weekend was AWESOME because I got to learn a new trade (deer capture and release) and also had a chance to do some good hiking while looking for a radio collar with Radio Telemetry. We ended up going up and down adjacent canyons looking for a possibly dead radio collared deer. We were about ready to give up when we found it... next to the road.. on flat ground. No deer in sight. Darn thing gave us the slip! LOL
Goal(s): So I doubt I'll get much of a chance to visit bookstores this week so I think the temptation to buy that Grande Double Chocolate Chip and that scone will subside and things will get better.
I have my new goggles now so I have no excuse not to go swimming. Our schedule should be more routine so I also don't have any excuse to skimp out on my swimming either.
I'm preparing a new article as I type this. I'm thinking what I'll do is try to write 2 articles a week. One specific on local functions (since I AM a LOCAL examiner) and one focused more on what it takes to lose weight and looking in to reasons we gain weight in the first place etc.
Today's article will be focused on local events. So if you're from the Inland Empire this should be relevant to you. LOL
Till we meet again!
-w0rld
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