Running a 5k tomorrow!

Even though I had been thinking about it and I don't really feel ready for it I decided to register for a 5k, the very same 5k that I ran for my very first time last year.

Running my first 5k last year.

It was the race I ran before I injured my foot and stopped running. Before I regained 10 lbs. Before I decided that eating a ton of chocolate the entire month prior was a good idea.

Why did I want to run a race I don't feel ready for? Because I'm scared. Because I've been taking it easy and I don't know if I can do it. I don't know if I can run as well as I could earlier this year, or last year.

But I want to prove to myself that I can still run. That although I've been in this long, looong plateau that I can still accomplish something. That I can still go out for a goal and reach it.

I really feel like I've slowly been losing my grasp and control of my weight loss. I've been scared and lazy and I worry that I won't be able to lose weight again. I've been sabotaging myself as well, which makes me wonder what it is I'm really worried about and why do I keep eating.

Is it motivation I'm lacking? Dedication? Consistency?

Apparently I haven't lost it completely because I still have the drive to sign up for a race and do it tomorrow.
Thankfully I won't be alone! There are 6 of us running this race. There were 5 of us last year.

I guess I'm hoping that running this race will re-kindle my drive to continue my weight loss regime. I need something to jump start me again.

I'm nervous. I'm curious to see what my timing will be this time. I'm excited to be running with others. My initial goal for this year was to run a half marathon by now. Things have changed but I wanted to at least not completely give up on racing.

Nervous yet excited

I'll have full updates on the results of race day later this weekend.

Hope everyone had a fun Halloween!
-w0rld