On a Journey to Wellness

Come with me on my journey to losing weight, getting healthy and going out to meet the world head-on!

Tuesday, August 18, 2015

Starting over/ A New Project

Needless to say I haven't been keeping up this blog. I've missed it, yes but I've made excuses:

1. I'm too busy to blog.
2. I'm not really counting calories right now so ....
3. I'm happy right now, I don't need the blog.
4. Ok, I'm unhappy right now and I don't want to admit it on the blog.
5. I'm too busy to blog.
6. My life is hectic and I'm not losing or gaining anyway.
7. I'm moving. I need to focus on that!
8. I'm getting a puppy!
9. The puppy is a hassle.
10. I'm too busy to blog.
11. I'm gaining weight with this new desk job.
12. I don't like my desk job.
13. I'm too busy to exercise, let alone blog.
14. I'm really, really gaining weight.
15. I'm going to start counting calories, but not blog.
16. I'm too busy to count calories... or blog.
17. I really don't like this whole desk job thing.
18. Hmm.. I'm emotionally eating again.
19. I gained MORE weight.
20. I'm too ashamed to blog.

I think that recounts the end of 2014 and all of 2015 to date.

So what brought me back here? Yesterday was my 29th birthday. When I first started this blog I told myself that I would get healthy by the time I was 30.

I started doing well but then the yo-yo dieting and plateaus happened and my frustrations and excuses held me back.

I now made the biggest change and my body is feeling it.

So I decided that I needed to start over. And a new start means a new blog:

The w0rld Project: How I am going to take my life back in 52 weeks


I invite you, if you're still with me, to visit me in my new blog. The focus of my new blog is to learn how to change my mindset, my habits, and my goals so when I finally reach 30 I can hit the ground running on living the best life I can live. Yes, a good part of it will still be weight loss but it won't be the only thing. It'll be about figuring out what 'healthy living' means for me and my needs.

The great thing this time is that I'm not starting blind. These last 5 years have not been for nothing. I've learned so MANY things about my health, my weight, my habits and my sabotage. I've reached goals, seen set backs and I'm ready to try again.

Come with me.


Wednesday, September 24, 2014

Late Weigh In

I weighed in today. I was so nervous after eating bread and dairy all last week. I honestly didn't want to weigh in.

But here it is:

Current Weight: 207.2 lbs (-0.2 lbs)

I lost the little I must have gained during my binge. I'm so happy to see that it didn't get too bad.

To double check my weight loss I measured my hips and waist.

I lost 1/4 inch on my hips (finally!) and lost 3/4 of an inch on my waist.

That's a total of 1/4 inch off my hips and 1 1/4 inches off my waist since I started my calorie counting streak. I'm thrilled I'm seeing results no matter how snail pace it is.

It's time for work now. I hope that getting back in to the swing of things will help give me some energy. I'm emotionally drained right now.

I'll continue my calorie counting streak and try to stay closer to 1500 calories.

The start of the week hasn't been any better. I'll check in again later.

Have a great week everyone!


Monday, September 22, 2014

Sum up of Week 4 Calorie Counting Streak

It was a hard week for weight loss. I ate relatively well this weekend with a few hiccups. However I don't think I've recovered from last weeks binge eating. My stomach was rumbling all weekend.

Here are Day 5-7 calorie totals.

Friday: 1580 calories

Saturday: 1798 calories

Sunday: 1723 calories

I ate naan, ice cream and heavy seafood. I also ate salads, greens, avocado, carrots, farmers market fruit and other healthy delicious food.

I didn't exercise much unless it was a short walk here or there. The point is that my stomach still hates me from eating carbs and too much sugar.

I had a protein shake with fruit for breakfast. Going to take it easy this week. It's back to work anyway.

I don't have a scale near me and I am not looking forward to it. I'll check in again when I finally weigh in on Wednesday.


Friday, September 19, 2014

Week 4's Calorie Counting Streak Day 1-4

It's been a busy and very quick week.

There was a family emergency. I was on the road before 6 am on Monday morning to the Mexican border (about 450 miles) after getting some bad news over a text Sunday afternoon.

I ate bread. I ate sugar. I cried. I laughed and I've driven over 1,000 miles just in these last 4 days.

I still tracked everything I put in my mouth. I would cringe at the number I was left with. Not a good week so far. Time to fix it.

Here's the damage:

Monday: 2,130 calories

Tuesday: 2,052 calories

Wednesday: 2,818 calories (totally felt sick this day)

Thursday: 1,188 calories (taking a break and not feeling well anyway)

This weekend is going to be for complete recovery. I don't want to think about another Starbucks frappuccino or oreo cookies. Ugh just thinking about it makes me cringe and my stomach grumble.

I haven't weighed myself and I'm not looking forward to it. All I can do now is to take it easy with the food and go for walks and strength training.

I'll check in again at the end of the weekend. Have a good one.


Monday, September 15, 2014

When gaining weight during a weight loss journey makes me happy.

Quick early morning check in.

I woke up at 5 am today to get ready for my big drive.

Hoped on the scale and saw this:

Current Weight: 207.4 (gained 1.4 lbs from last Monday)

I've been feeling better somedays and like the fattest pig other days. I decided to measure my middle.

I've lost one inch above my waist.
3/4 of an inch on my waist
1/2 of an inch on my hips.

Would you look at that. Last year I lost 15 lbs and maybe 1/2 an inch all around. This time I'm gaining weight and losing inches. This is great news for a PCOS woman. Losing inches off my middle is like taking years back from my life.

I hope this tiny win can help keep me going today. I'm going to need my energy tonight during the wake/family reunion.

Have a good Monday.


Sunday, September 14, 2014

Last day of Week 3's Calorie Counting Streak: Quick Post

Today started out well. I said goodbye to an amazing group of young ladies after doing an epic hike with them yesterday of which I am still sore.

I was eating pretty healthy and even second attempted making cauliflower crust pizza. It ends up tasting delicious but the wax paper I use keeps getting stuck to the cauliflower crust. Next time I'm going to ditch the wax paper.

The only problem is that I couldn't ditch the strong urge to want to eat chocolate and ice cream. I finally told myself I'd go for a bike ride and then head over to the ice cream shop and get a small soft serve ice cream.

The second I started my ride I got a text and I eventually checked it. It was from my mom explaining that my aunt had died. Stop Everything. I turned around and on my way back found a bake sale. As I text my mom back and forth I bought a cupcake and a small cookie, donated an extra $5 to the sixth graders cause and went home. The cupcake didn't satisfy and I actually felt worse for eating bread. I don't even like cupcakes.

I was so upset over the news and over my immediate 'find dessert NOW' reaction that I eventually got myself to the gym and worked my arms and my already sore legs. I spent over an hour in the gym just trying to undo the dumb over eating I did and try to numb myself from the shock of hearing the news about my aunt.

I'm still in a bit of shock but I've been busy. I'm packed and nearly ready to drive 450 miles to the Mexico border to go to the viewing/wake tomorrow evening and the funeral on Tuesday morning.

Mexico doesn't hesitate when it comes to funerals. I had to act quickly.

I'll be out of town for most of the week. Here's the last day of week 3's calorie counting challenge.

Total calories: 1,880

Total burned calories: 501

Saturday, September 13, 2014

Calorie Counting Streak Week 3 Day 6!

I'm so happy to see that I'm almost done with week 3 of my calorie counting streak.

I admit I couldn't sleep last night wondering what I was doing wrong and not losing weight this week. I can't believe it kept me up most of the night. But what helped was looking back at my patterns in MyFitnessPal and seeing how much I was eating, when I ate the most, what I ate the most etc. That helped me be mindful of the little things you don't think are a big deal but turn out to be.

For instance, this whole week I over ate and under worked out. I realized that I would always log what I ate after I indulged and then get upset over how many calories I ended up consuming.

Today I decided to log what I planned to eat before I ate it and adjust accordingly. It worked! I hope I can continue this simple but game changing habit.

Breakfast: 471 calories

Snack: 187 calories (individually wrapped trail mix)

Lunch: 287 calories

Dinner: 470 calories

TOTAL: 1415 calories (woo! Under 1500 FINALLY!)

I probably burned as many calories as I consumed since we did one of the steepest hikes I've ever done with a group. I also went really, really slowly because I stayed back with one of the students that was having a hard time making it up the mountain. We still made it. I still sweated like crazy.

Good times.

I hope I can continue to plan my meals ahead of time so that I can anticipate when I'm about to go over in calories and then figure out a way to fill myself up without over indulging.

One day at a time.