So, I ate big.
I was eating like crazy all day not just during dinner. I was eating like crazy all week actually. I just ate breakfast and I still feel super stuffed.
So, I knew every time I put something in my mouth that I was doing wrong. I kept telling myself that I'll work on it later. That I'd work out later.
But my guilt was eating me up more than I was eating up chocolate.
Once we put the pre-cooked Turkey and Ham in the oven it looked like we had an hour and 45 minutes to kill.
I was already feeling full and dinner wasn't even ready. *shakes head*
I told myself NO, I had to do something now.. anything to make me feel better.
So I told my mom, I was going out for a little while. She understood what I meant.
I was going to the gym.
I drove to the gym. 24 Hr Fitness right? They should be open at 6pm right?
I got there and the place was a Ghost Town. I couldn't even get upset. The roads were almost completely empty anyway. Everyone was at home, warm and toasty.
I wanted to be warm and toasty too.
But no. I told myself I had to work out at least a little.
So I drove up to a jogging park in a nice-ish neighborhood literally up-hill from my own neighborhood.
The place was dimly lit with streetlights and abandoned.
It was COLD. I was only wearing my hoodie. I admit I understood the stupidity of what I was doing. Cold, abandoned street, dim lights and a girl jogging it with earphones.
A recipe for disaster right?
I did it anyway.
I put on my favorite tunes and started jogging/power walking. The street led to a park up a hill. I jogged to the hill, turned around and jogged back.
I took it easy and let the music lead my speed. It took me a little over 40 minutes. The trip was about ~2 miles round trip.
After my initial concern it actually turned out to be very calming and nice. The park/path was surrounded by houses. I could smell the cooking in all the houses. It smelled A-mazing. It made me happy knowing all these people were with loved ones cooking amazing food and enjoying it together.
Once I finished my jog I felt better. I had gone out of my way to get a work out in. I felt refreshed and dare I say it, hungry. Not only for food but hungry to get home and be with MY family and smell MY houses cooking.
I drove home. I took a shower. I helped set the table. We ate and everything was good.