I have since then made a decision. I now see a light in the tunnel... and new obstacles ahead.
What am I talking about? I made a decision on a job.. for the summer.. that will hopefully--if I play my cards right-- will help me to move toward getting in to grad school, that will help me toward a great career, where I can finally make enough money, so that I can finally get my dog, meet some people, and get my life going.
And maybe, JUST maybe have my own permanent address someday. Crazy! I know!
I feel much lighter. AND I haven't binged today either. I kind of feel like I have enough space in my head now to look at different things, like maybe spicing up the look of this blog again.. and maybe working on a new work out and food intake regime.
"I will win this inner war!! Ha Ha, Elina the Conquerer!"
That's what I like to tell myself but I admit I'm incredibly nervous. This is a big risk for me and I'm not much of a risk taker.
I tried to make a conquering face for a pic with my webcam but all that came out were these nervous looking smiles so I just let my nervous face speak for itself
But if we remember this is "The Year of Risk Taking". So here I am. Taking a risk on a job. I can do this. Right?